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♥You are my love
Oct. 25th, 2009 | 12:31 am
mood: 
loved
music: Kimi no Inai Basho de - Kagamine Rin and Len
This voice, this song, will reach youLet me, let me hear your sounds
If someday, someday, it will get to you
Even now, like this, I'll sing
I don't believe in forever, in eternity
So someday, someday, the mirror will break
So that I may, I may be with you
Even now, I believe, and sing
Within, within the constant sound
Your song that I noticed, that I heard
Was something, something I dreamed of
The mirror has cracked...
At this point, it was homecoming and my friend, Clarissa had convinced me to go to homecoming with her and Tim at Granada. Of course, I was reluctant at that time and pretty much, I wasn't a dancer. =3= In particular, I do better with choreographed dances. Anyways, after I finally said yes, I had to invite Ruki of course. I would have anyways because he was and always will be my first choice. So, me and Clarissa were getting ready and basically got there. Ruki was there as well but let's skip the minor details. It was typical, even though we didn't dance much and really just talked and wandered about, I still loved it. It was a time when me and him could be together. It was hard during those times but of course just talking with him and just staying in touch with him made it better. Well, it came to the point of the night where it was the slow dances. So we join in, it being the last dance after all. It was nice, I was nervous and he probably was too. Though, it started to get really nice. After a while however, that was when I had realized that it would become one of the best nights in my life as well as the most memorable. It was the time I had my first kiss and definitely from someone that I really like, in fact love. That was one unforgettable night for me and in particular, it makes me really happy when I do remember it because it makes me rather giddy inside.
In particular, that was what was remembered tonight. It's interesting how one word can trigger such important things but I guess that just shows to you how special it is. If it can be remembered very easily. In truth, I miss that night and the other nights that we've met but I feel more that my heart can't waver unless it's him. Ruki has always been there really and I feel that I can always be there for him. There have been rather many nights that I remember, and I'm for sure that there will be more nights to come that will be as important, if not more and special. Though, I have to say that I felt really happy when I remembered this memory because it's one of my most treasured really. I guess it can't be taken away or covered up because it's well stuck in my mind. I just hope that everytime I can remember things like this that I can anticipate more in the future.
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Anime Expo 2009, Days after the con and the Future?
Jul. 16th, 2009 | 04:55 pm
location: My living room XP
mood: 
creative
music: Return to Zero #1 - Kagamine Len
"Everyone is a friend, until they prove otherwise."
~Unknown
So...Just recently I got back from Anime Expo and I have to say, that it was a lot more fun then I thought it would be. Despite the room that we got was far and not the best place to be, I found that the convention was worth it. Though, next year we had already determined to go without the people that had booked the room we stayed at this year. Though, I won't go into detail about that. The convention in general seemed to be more enjoyable then last year and from that, I met a lot of people. On the first day, I pretty much hung out with people I knew. That being Brittany, Jennifer, Motoko, Ruby, TK, and etc. Whoever I could find really. Second day, however, that had to be the best day to meet people in my life! At this point, I was
from Pokemon. That was really fun in itself. But also during that time, even though I had seen them on the first day, I found a Katekyo Hitman Reborn group in the room that led to the Dealer's Room, dancing. We met, talked and of course became friends! Most of the time we had danced, Love & Joy, Honey, Hare Hare Yukai, Kurutto Odotte, and etc. It was rather fun but also when I left, I met a friend I had been talking online for a long time and finally met him. Him being called Maguma. The rest I won't go into detail since it's difficult to be talking all about the con but it the place we had been in had made us leave two days early much to our dismay since me, Jennifer, and Brittany had wanted to go to Little Tokyo, and the Fashion District. All in all, it was a pretty good trip.Well, I have been planning ahead for cons for next year. X3 I'm trying to save for Fanime, Sakura Con, Anime Expo, and Anime Vegas. More along the way if it's needed or if I'm dragged. XD What I'm currently working on is Vocaloid! My Kagamine Rin outfit! X3 Of course, the one to be my Len is none other then my hubby Ruki. :3 I'm going with a rather large group for next year with Vocaloid. There's Miku of course, Kaito, Meiko, Luka, and Teto. We have everyone and more for the Return to Zero group! :3 Though, what I'm also doing next year are Ikuto from Shugo Chara, Ritsuka from Loveless, Roxas from Kingdom Hearts and more when I start organizing things probably. Though, that's about as much as I've done in the past few days as well as photoshoots I had done with a friend in my Air Gear outfit. Maybe I'll upload some if I feel like it XD
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Ragnarok Online D:
Mar. 31st, 2009 | 12:28 pm
location: School Computer Lab
mood: 
hyper
music: Momentum - Ayumi Hamasaki
Okay. So lately, I have been rather obsessed with one game. Ragnarok. I swear, it's like a drug but as Rune had said, it's not an obsession. It's a lifestyle. XD I'm actually going to stick by that. But anyways, I have been playing for around two weeks actually and I really can't stop. I've been playing day and night and whenever I can play XD When I went to Language Fair this weekend, I seriously had to busy myself so that I wouldn't think about it. When I stopped though, my mind kept saying to me, "I WANNA PLAY RAGAROK DX" I need to get over this obsession XD Before it gets bad. But still, it is like a life style... I guess. It depends on the people right? But anyways, I've been having fun. Except for two moments that happened recently. I swear, they came out of NOWHERE! It had to be the biggest WTF moments for me in the game. XD I've never really had that happen to me but then again, I never wandered to dungeons like that.But anyways, what happened was that I was partied with Rune, and my brother. Me being the priest and all, I'm the supporter. We were in the Pyramids and we were doing well. Well, what happened was that this large freaking group of mumies come after us. Guess who leads? It's Osiris. So we get freaking gang raped by this group and I can't do anything because I'm the priest. To say the least, we died of course. Then the SECOND time, we go to Magma Dungeon I think. Same thing happens but this time, we fought some kind of golem. They gathered in one freaking spot and just seemed to wait for us! I couldn't even heal because the two were covered. XD But then I heard that yesterday, I think a Dark Illusion did it to Rune and Aiya, who recently joined us. Come on! I did not see one MVP boss in Glast Heim and it suddenly appears? Where was it when we fought in St Abbey?! It disapepared on us when we were so close to killing it. Okay maybe not but we were getting there. Then it suddenly teleports. I swear, it was aggravating. Then we try looking for it for an hour in the freakin dungeon and it seems that it disappeared off the face of the map.
Ragnarok seems to find many different ways to piss me off and a bit of it has been this. Though, since I have actually fallen for it since a while ago, mainly during the time it became popular way back then. It's still favored for me still. :3 I have realized how annoying it can be though. -_- It's not a game for those with big tempers. But if anyone wants to play, I play on Love Ragnarok Online. My names merely consist of Telos (On this most of the time), Nocturne, Lafayel, Amou.
So yeah. :3 Just give me a whisper or something and let's team up. :3 But I should say that I really want a big team. XD But yeah. Play! It's fun XD
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First ever actual journal entry?
Feb. 26th, 2009 | 09:24 pm
location: Where I usually type things. >>
mood: Nyappy o(≧∀≦)o
music: NYAPPY in the World
Okay! So generally, this is my first real journal post. The ones from before, I have been just chatting what's on my mind. This will be kind of more like a rant and things that I may discuss in the future. First off, I'd like to introduce who I am. My name is Kiyoko, which of course, is not my real name. I'm currently eighteen and in college. I am a cosplayer, singer, actor, and writer. I write from fiction to script which so far have been the only things that I have done. For cosplay, I have been thinking. This year is really going to be a busy year for me. I'm going to be working on cosplay for this year and next year, generally leading up to around five or more sewing then I need to do. This year, for Anime Expo, I'm actually working on an Ouran, Vocaloid, Air Gear, The World Ends with You, DBSK, and Pokemon. The biggest ones for me really are just Ouran, Pokemon and TWEWY. If anyone had known what they were, then you'd understand. Though, I have finished part of Ouran as well as Pokemon which is a good thing. Generally, it's silly to think of what to do next year already but it's just the ones that I'm not doing this year. There's Kingdom Hearts, Xenosaga, Antic Cafe, and that's probably going to be it. Xenosaga cosplayers are so little it makes me sad T^T. Though, that's the one reason I'm doing it anyways. :3
So I've been doing a lot of thinking. Mainly centered around skits. I formed Suzaku Productions as one cosplay group and belong to another. It's rather interesting actually. :3 Skit has already been thought up of and written. Just the practicing needs to be done and the costumes made. -_- Mine is partially done while the twins and Tamaki has been having trouble. Everyone just has to go through money issues DX. Seriously, the economy sucks. But yeah. I have this group and my TWEWY group is the other cosplay group. :3 Both in Vegas and both going for it big lol. But anyways, I have been pissed with my Ouran outfit. My sleeve doesn't fit! DX I'm trying to tear it apart from the sleeve but I had to be stupid and doubled the sewing thing. So I'm sitting around with a razor trying to take it apart. it's taking forever so I haven't touched that outfit for two days. Not like I want to right now.
Aside from all this, I'm pretty happy. I get to make cosplay groups with the best friends I can ask for and I'm pretty content with life despite all the troubles we're going through >< These are times I wish I was rich but that's not going to happen for a while. LIfe has been pretty good and Christmas and New Years have passed since I last posted. O_o So belated both of those as well as Valentines Day! But yeah. I guess this is it and stay tuned for random rants, updates and all that junk. XP
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Eternal Snow
Dec. 20th, 2008 | 11:18 pm
" Christmas waves a magic wand over this world, and behold, everything is softer and more beautiful. "
~Norman Vincent Peale
And so another season is yet to come.
It has been a while since I have posted something but as of late, I have been busy with a few things. Though, during that time, it has given me time to think. For children, it's all about Santa Clause and presents. Not a time for family and friends. For adults, it's the time when they spend massive amounts of money in which they can satisfy their children's needs for presents and toys. Though, I've been wondering. What has teens thought of this holiday? Sure, we ask for the large things but what about those who don't? I necessarily don't ask for anything expensive. Though, as I have been thinking through these past few days, there are a few people that do look past all of the superficial things of Christmas about Old St. Nick, presents, toys, and spending. There are some that are just happy to have a family together for the most important time of the year of all. In my opinion, Christmas is something in which we can look forward to to maybe have a wish come true. Maybe to have a wish in your heart for a year, there could be the small possibility to have that come true. Though, of course a present is also something that's mainly a necessity. As many would say, it doesn't depend on the value of the gift but of how much you give from the heart. I say that's probably one of the best gifts if it's from the heart. A pricey item really doesn't show the love of someone if you hand it to them but if it's something you put your heart and soul into it, then it's worth even more. A hand made item, or something that you can come up with.
Here's something to give to thought however. It's better to give than to receive.
If we seriously took this into consideration, do people really take that to heart? People do say it but I wonder, do they really mean it? To me, I would prefer to give than to receive but mainly lack to resources and money, that is nearly impossible. I find it irritating that even when people say that, they don't truly mean it. The find it better to receive than to give. The very few that do so at least buy new toys and items and donate it, while others give out old, used, and probably, broken ones. The views of Christmas has gone askew but can it actually be reversed? With the corruption of people these days along with their greedy attitudes, I wonder, can they truly do a 180? Maybe but people need to actually put themselves to it. Never to give up halfway or anything.
Christmas is forever, not for just one day,
for loving, sharing, giving, are not to put away
like bells and lights and tinsel, in some box upon a shelf.
The good you do for others is good you do yourself...
It has been a while since I have posted something but as of late, I have been busy with a few things. Though, during that time, it has given me time to think. For children, it's all about Santa Clause and presents. Not a time for family and friends. For adults, it's the time when they spend massive amounts of money in which they can satisfy their children's needs for presents and toys. Though, I've been wondering. What has teens thought of this holiday? Sure, we ask for the large things but what about those who don't? I necessarily don't ask for anything expensive. Though, as I have been thinking through these past few days, there are a few people that do look past all of the superficial things of Christmas about Old St. Nick, presents, toys, and spending. There are some that are just happy to have a family together for the most important time of the year of all. In my opinion, Christmas is something in which we can look forward to to maybe have a wish come true. Maybe to have a wish in your heart for a year, there could be the small possibility to have that come true. Though, of course a present is also something that's mainly a necessity. As many would say, it doesn't depend on the value of the gift but of how much you give from the heart. I say that's probably one of the best gifts if it's from the heart. A pricey item really doesn't show the love of someone if you hand it to them but if it's something you put your heart and soul into it, then it's worth even more. A hand made item, or something that you can come up with.
Here's something to give to thought however. It's better to give than to receive.
If we seriously took this into consideration, do people really take that to heart? People do say it but I wonder, do they really mean it? To me, I would prefer to give than to receive but mainly lack to resources and money, that is nearly impossible. I find it irritating that even when people say that, they don't truly mean it. The find it better to receive than to give. The very few that do so at least buy new toys and items and donate it, while others give out old, used, and probably, broken ones. The views of Christmas has gone askew but can it actually be reversed? With the corruption of people these days along with their greedy attitudes, I wonder, can they truly do a 180? Maybe but people need to actually put themselves to it. Never to give up halfway or anything.
Christmas is forever, not for just one day,
for loving, sharing, giving, are not to put away
like bells and lights and tinsel, in some box upon a shelf.
The good you do for others is good you do yourself...
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For You~ I give my love
Nov. 27th, 2008 | 02:36 pm
location: Far far away.
mood: 
thankful
music: Rainy Day - Ayumi Hamasaki
"It isn't what you have in your pocket that makes you thankful, but what you have in your heart."
-Unknown
-Unknown
So today is another holiday in which we celebrate with family. Only, today is the day that you think about the things that you are most thankful for. Even though there are many times in the year for you to think of what you're thankful for, this is the day when you truly appreciate it in my mind. I have been thinking for hours on what I'm thankful for and, I realized it's everything of what's happened to me. If it hadn't been everything that's happened in my life, I wouldn't be the kind of person I am today. So in response, even the things that happened this year had been stressful, I think about the things that happened and passed. Even though it isn't something that I hadn't thought I would like sometimes, it's how it made me me. In this world there's a lot to be thankful about but what are the ones that you truly hold to heart? There's a few that I really have, that have been remaining in my heart for a long time. Though, it's nothing that I have ever thought about until this year. I suppose that a lot of things can be said that I'm thankful for but the few are mainly certain people.
For me, I have to personally thank Riku. he's always been there for me since middle school and I have been trying my best to help him as well. He's someone that I could have looked to when I had trouble but also he's someone that has always been there. There had been rough times and also some depressing times but with him being there, it was nice. The next person would have to be my friend Ryuichi. She had been there when I moved to Vegas. She had been one of the best friends I made there and having the same likes it was great. She was there when no one else could physically and I consider her as a sister. She is kind and I'm very glad to have met her because if I hadn't, then I would be pretty boring by now. The first person that I had met in Vegas as a friend has to be Sapphire. I met her on the first day of school that I went to and because of us two, we got in trouble on the same day. We were like sisters than and best friends now. If it hadn't been for her, I would have been really lost on the first day and I wouldn't have met the friends I have now. Even as we grew apart, for a bit, it was great being with her. I have to say that without her, I wouldn't be doing most of the things I'm doing now. Now, Motoko is definitely someone I cannot leave out. She had always been there like an older sister and she always knows what to do. During the times that we haven't had anything to do, with her, there's always something to do and plan. If I hadn't met her, or made friends with her, than my life would be the same as it is throughout the year with nothing to do. I love her to death and I'm certainly glad I had gone to the con to meet her. Lastly, there's Koizumi. I had only known him for a short time but I'm certainly grateful to have met him. He's kind and he had always been there to hang out with me and Motoko. We were never alone and we always had a good time. He was the one that was always up for picking us up and taking us to places. He never let us down and helped us through some bad times. I'm thankful for the times that we spent all together during those days.
Everything had happened for a reason and there's a lot for me to be thankful for about. Though, those three people, even when it's based necessarily in the past, I'm thankful for all the things they have done. I mean, they have helped me through tough times, they have gotten rid of my boredom, and they've done great things to make me be able to smile all the time. This is the reason why that I'm thankful for them with all of my heart. They are people that are irreplaceable because they have done something to change my life. I'm definitely happy to have met them and wish for all of them to live a happy life as much as they can.
For me, I have to personally thank Riku. he's always been there for me since middle school and I have been trying my best to help him as well. He's someone that I could have looked to when I had trouble but also he's someone that has always been there. There had been rough times and also some depressing times but with him being there, it was nice. The next person would have to be my friend Ryuichi. She had been there when I moved to Vegas. She had been one of the best friends I made there and having the same likes it was great. She was there when no one else could physically and I consider her as a sister. She is kind and I'm very glad to have met her because if I hadn't, then I would be pretty boring by now. The first person that I had met in Vegas as a friend has to be Sapphire. I met her on the first day of school that I went to and because of us two, we got in trouble on the same day. We were like sisters than and best friends now. If it hadn't been for her, I would have been really lost on the first day and I wouldn't have met the friends I have now. Even as we grew apart, for a bit, it was great being with her. I have to say that without her, I wouldn't be doing most of the things I'm doing now. Now, Motoko is definitely someone I cannot leave out. She had always been there like an older sister and she always knows what to do. During the times that we haven't had anything to do, with her, there's always something to do and plan. If I hadn't met her, or made friends with her, than my life would be the same as it is throughout the year with nothing to do. I love her to death and I'm certainly glad I had gone to the con to meet her. Lastly, there's Koizumi. I had only known him for a short time but I'm certainly grateful to have met him. He's kind and he had always been there to hang out with me and Motoko. We were never alone and we always had a good time. He was the one that was always up for picking us up and taking us to places. He never let us down and helped us through some bad times. I'm thankful for the times that we spent all together during those days.
Everything had happened for a reason and there's a lot for me to be thankful for about. Though, those three people, even when it's based necessarily in the past, I'm thankful for all the things they have done. I mean, they have helped me through tough times, they have gotten rid of my boredom, and they've done great things to make me be able to smile all the time. This is the reason why that I'm thankful for them with all of my heart. They are people that are irreplaceable because they have done something to change my life. I'm definitely happy to have met them and wish for all of them to live a happy life as much as they can.
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Dream Scape~
Nov. 27th, 2008 | 01:51 am
location: Where do you think?
mood: 
cold
"When people are bored, it is primarily with their own selves that they are bored."
-Eric Hoffer
Okay. So I'm at the point right now that I'm extremely bored that I can't even think of doing anything. I swear, life was so much simpler in the past. I mean, back then, you didn't have anything to worry about, you always had something to do. There were good things on TV and barely anything on the computer. So many things were going on outside in which you could take part of that you didn't have time to be bored or even turn on the TV. Now, it seems that life revolves around staying inside and watching TV, or going on the computer to check LJ, Myspace, Xanga, and all of that junk. Without anything going on in those sites, we go for Youtube or anything like that. If there's nothing else, there's nothing on TV. Then there's boredom. The good old days would have been different but now as technology grows, it seems that our boredom does as well. I can't say that I'm not part of that group but that would mean I'm a liar. I am part of the group that gets bored if there's nothing on TV, or nothing to do on the computer. It's pathetic in my mind. Though, I guess that it's impossible to get to the past after becoming accustomed to the life we have right now. Right? Though, I miss a lot of things that have happened in the past. There's a lot that has been on my mind about it too that I miss it.
Back than, I didn't worry about having to face the things that I have faced now and just a few years after that. The past is something that I've been thinking about a lot lately. I mean, there's so many people that I miss that it makes me feel lonely as well. The people I had once been close to no longer exist because of the time lapse between then and now. Though, I admit that the one person that I miss the most has to be Riku. We were together for a couple of years but after having to move, it's been harder to see him. After all, a desert is between us. But I still love him. It's just tiring of having the inability to see each other whenever we want. I still miss my friends in Cali but it's difficult to get there. Though, as I think about what's happened, even when I regretted the thought of moving to Vegas, a lot of good stuff had come out of it. I made great friends, and got along with a lot of people. Though, there's always the times that I want to be with him... Of course, that's going to happen someday. Hopefully soon. Anyhow! Away from that! Onwards!
So. Putting the past aside, right now, life is boring. There has been no excitement whatsoever for the past few months. It's only been hanging out with friends and that's it. No conventions, PMX came and went, and what's even more is that there's nothing else to do. Two of my main friends from Vegas are moving to Cali and that leaves me with nothing to do. I guess that it might mean something. >> Maybe I'm supposed to follow them to Cali to be with Riku and them. Though, maybe not. So far I've been thinking. Why is it that everyone but me are moving to Cali? How is life so not fair? They cast me aside and bring the people that least want to go to Cali to there? Why do they have to leave the ones that want to behind in the place that they don't want to be? Well, I do want to be here but I also want to be there! It's not fair to the fact that everyone else is going there really. Life seriously seems unfair these days. Though, maybe moving to Cali can work one day. Hopefully I can get there. Just a place that I belong. I want to be in the comfort of Riku and my friends. Well, life's not fair but if it's going to play like that, I'll just have to go against it just like that. I won't go down without a fight. Because I want to try and at least live my life with him. Maybe I'm asking for much but it's just a hope for the future.
